Taking deep breaths before publishing this blog this morning…
I just watched a whole bunch of very old, cringe-worthy videos of mine on YouTube.
Yeah, it’s been a journey for sure.
That was the WORST!
I considered taking them down. I texted a friend and said, “This is why I’ll never be on Oprah.” I asked my husband if people look at me like a joke. And if I’ll ever be a grown-up, sophisticated lady.
Yes, I said “lady.”
Feeling like an outsider and wanting to fit in has always been something I’ve struggled with. I like me, but who I am doesn’t quite look like the people in my industry… or the moms at Girl Scouts… or even my mentors, the amazing women I look up to. I often wonder if there’s a place for my work and my message. A place for me.
So I did a quick meditation and let it go. I had an awesome dream about Trump losing the 2020 election (even Ivanka didn’t vote for him!). And I woke up this morning and did an inventory of my self-talk… and of all the things that I’m grateful for in this moment.
And here’s the deal. I have the most talented, smart friends that are all doing amazing things in this world and that have my back no matter what. I met almost all of them through wellness. I have the house of MY dreams, a bestselling book and another on the way, and thousands of beautiful souls in my online community.
I have many blessings to count.
And you know what—it’s all because I made a whole bunch of really goofy videos that helped a lot of people, and where I showed my true self, and laughed too loud, and made terrible jokes, and wore wacky neon spandex, and forgot to brush my hair, and got super vulnerable, and told the truth as I knew it in the moment.
I got uncomfortable a LOT. I still get uncomfortable a lot. But most of the discomfort happens when I’m pushing the publish button on YouTube or hitting send on a newsletter. When I’m creating I feel like myself, and that feels good. Expressing myself feels like truth. (continued in the comments)
It feels like I’m connected to God. It feels like I’m fulfilling my purpose.
Here’s my question for you:
Do you have something that makes your soul sing but you’re afraid to show the world? Can you suspend discomfort (or HUGE DEBILITATING FEAR) for a few minutes to imagine the wild places expressing yourself unapologetically and OUT LOUD might take you?
Try it. See what happens. And maybe try showing a little more of yourself to the world today.
And tell me about it on Facebook in my private group here.
I love you.
Rebekah “Bex” Borucki, founder of BexLife.com and the Blissed In® wellness movement, is a mother-of-five, TV host, meditation guide, author, speaker, birth doula, fitness and yoga instructor, and popular social media personality. Her first book, You Have 4 Minutes to Change Your Life (Hay House 2017), is available now, wherever books are sold.
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